Monday, September 9, 2013

An Open Halloween Letter from an Ex-Pagan









Written Halloween, 2009...


Hi. My name is Pennie De Witt and I'm a recovering occultist. A former slave to Satan. Below are just some of the thoughts that have been pouring through my mind today.

Can I do pagan things if I just don't think of them as pagan?

What if I dance naked around the fire for Jesus instead of for Hecate?

What if I get a new deck of Tarot cards, assign each of them a Bible story, and use them to get closer to God?

Why don't I redeem orgies and abortion for Christ while I'm at it?

For that matter, why don't I just open back up for business as a psychic and dedicate it to the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob?

Isn't it okay to do house cleansings with a rattle? Well, how about if I ditch the rattle and just wear the mask? Would it be better if I put a smile on the mask? And how about, while I'm wearing the mask I go reveling with my friends, but only for candy? How about if I just make a Talisman and put a cute, innocent, funny-face on it?

Of course I would never do such things!

It doesn't matter if you change your intentions. If you read the Bible you'll see, as I have, that the one thing that always ticked God off the most was when His people adopted the customs of the pagans. It was an abomination to Him.

He is the same yesterday, today and always. And it still angers Him today when we adopt pagan customs, even if we try to do them "with different intentions," and "redeem them for Christ."

As I sit and watch many of my Christian brothers and sisters posting on Facebook about their Halloween festivities, my heart breaks. I'm frightened for them, for our nation, and for God's people.

You see, I spent 26 years in the occult. I started out with Wicca as an adolescent, and throughout the years moved on to every corner of alternative spirituality that I could find - Shamanism, New Thought, Rosicrucianism, Eastern Mysticism - you name it.

At age 24 I became a professional psychic. I spent fifteen years serving Satan this way. I made a lot of money, got my own radio show and developed a world-wide following. I thought I was on top of the world.

Slowly, my world started falling apart. Before it was over, I was being evicted from my home, and my daughter was writhing on the floor, growling, hissing and clawing at the carpet on a daily basis.

I sought answers. I tried all my techniques. I reached out to others and, eventually, I started praying. I told God that if He didn't give me some answers soon, I was going to kill myself so I could stand before Him and get them myself.

Then one morning I was hiking behind my house, and I noticed something moving next to my shoe. I took a couple steps past it and turned around. It was a rattler, coiled, and ready to strike. I looked around and realized I was alone on that mountain. If I got bitten, I could definitely die.

Suddenly, as I stood frozen in front of that snake, it was like the sky opened up, and I saw the King of the Universe sitting on His throne. And for the first time in my life I feared Him. He was so perfect.

I thought, "I could never measure up to that perfection. No matter how perfect I made myself, I could never come close to that."

His purity was like a clean fire. It would burn me up in an instant. That's when I started thinking, "Maybe those Christians have a good idea with that redemption thing."

So, you know what I did after that? I went home and did the only thing I knew to do. I looked up "snake" in my power animal dictionaries. In dictionary after dictionary, the message rang loud and clear: "Give yourself over to transformation, let the old die so that the new may be reborn, let go, new life, new spiritual path..." It would have been almost spooky if it hadn't been so precious. He met me right where I was, and he spoke to me in MY language. I wouldn't have listened to anything else.

I knew those terms, "reborn," and "new life." I knew those were from the Bible. I wondered if perhaps the Christians could help me, so I went to church and started investigating Christianity. It took several months of reading and studying, seeking answers to my questions and facing my fears.

Finally, as I sat on my bed one night, reading "The Case for Faith" by Lee Strobel, it finally hit me! That twisted, tortured figure on the cross was there out of compassion for ME! Jesus died for ME! God cared about me so much that He came to this planet in human form and did this for ME. He saw me, He knew me, He understood my pain and my suffering. He felt it, and He wanted to carry it for me. My whole life culminated in this one moment, and I could see that it had all happened for a reason, that God had been pursuing me through it all. I mattered.

I curled up in a little ball and just sobbed. I was ready to give it all up to Him and let Him take care of me.

That Sunday, Sept 9th, 2007, I got saved. I admitted I was wrong, that I had disobeyed God. I renounced all my occult practices and was set free.

The following Saturday I burned all my occult books and paraphernalia, and eleven decks of Tarot cards, per Acts 19:19-20.

Sunday, Sept 16, 2007, I was baptized.

A few weeks later, my sister got saved and left prostitution and the porn industry.

I sit here watching some of my loved ones turn away from the occult, and yet I see many others still entrapped - people dying in sweat lodges, for example. And then I see the very people who threw me the lifeline now turning toward what nearly destroyed me.

I don't understand. Is Halloween that important? What is so valuable about costumes and Jack-o-Lanterns and candy that it can't be renounced for this God who loves us so much?

I've read articles in which people say things like, "I'm not going to let Satan take away my fun." What is Satan's "fun" compared to the joy of the Lord? He can have Halloween for all I care! There's no fun for me in celebrating Satan's schemes.

My daughter, who was raised from birth in occultism, doesn't miss it at all. She once said, "I can't wait 'til Halloween so we can NOT celebrate it!"

Halloween is pagan, it's based on witchcraft, and it's part of my old life. All things have been made new for me. I don't even feel I need an alternative. I'm not missing anything. In fact, I plan on spending my evening in prayer for those who are still in slavery to Satan. I am eternally grateful to the Lord for the sacrifice He made, and giving up Halloween is the least I can do. I'm free now! Why bother putting my chains back on for one night, in the name of fun, or tradition, or anything else?

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78 comments:

  1. What a great testimony, thank you for sharing. Here in South Africa this is a growing and scary phenomenon and watching parents encourage their kids to open doors like this while expecting someone else in church to get them 'hooked up with Jesus' whilst not living for Christ themselves is worrying. I think I may join you in that prayer vigil (just a couple of hours ahead)

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    1. Thank you, Cuan. I very much appreciate you considering joining us in prayer. Those who are trapped in the darkness need all the prayer they can get. By the way, I have another, more complete testimony that I've written more recently. You can read it here: http://pennierenewed.blogspot.com/2013/03/renewal-testimony-of-ex-occultist.html

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  2. Thank you for this awesome testimony, I too spent several years in the occult (nothing as serious as what you did I think, based on your testimony, but just as abominable before God) before turning to the LORD. I plan on sharing this with my friends, acquaintances, and family. God bless you!

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  3. I liked your article Pennie. Thanks for sharing. I agree whole-heartedly.

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  4. Wow! Thank you so much for sharing your testimony Pennie! It breaks my heart also to see Christians "celebrating" by having Fall Festivals and the like in their parking lots or rec buildings on Halloween so their kids won't feel "left out". What a great time this would be for churches to sit down and explain the hand Satan has on this world and how he and his demons masquerade as light. Churches today, in the age of Apostasy in which we live, are watered down and are not preparing people for the spiritual battles we encounter.

    Ephesians 6:12 tells us "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places."

    Many so called "Christians" today couldn't explain what that means because the shepherds have gone to sleep and want to be the financial beneficiary of seeker friendly/emerging churches, etc. (got to entertain, tickle ears, have coffee bars and atm machines in the foyer). I'm not saying all churches are this way but it is difficult to find churches that are giving the sheep meat instead of pablum.

    If the Lord leads you to do so I would love to hear your witness to the Pagan holidays of Christmas and Easter. So many in the church (meaning the body of Christ, not the brick and mortar places) have no clue what they are worshiping on December 25 and during the Spring Equinox. God bless you sister, and may we all be found worthy to attend the marriage supper of the Lamb.

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    1. Thank you, Missotisre. I have more than a full plate right now, but I hope to address quite a few more things in the future.

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  5. sis pennie, i love your testimony. i had the same temptation with tarot reading and astrology. i was called to council marriages and families. and i did with great accuracy. it was a temptation for me for about 8 years to simply open the books, in private, to get a good read on someone. i've been a christian for 12 years now ( i'm 32) and i have to say i feel more at peace and have been more succesful then i have ever been in my life with anything else. in jesus name. god bless. and also GREAT to hear about your DAUGHTER!

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    1. Thank you very much. I'm glad to hear you have found freedom as well. It is amazing what Jesus can do!

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  6. AWESOME TESTIMONY ...POWERFUL TRUTHS

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  7. Let the living praise the Lord..powerful testimony

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  8. Great blog post. Thank you. I am so glad God redeemed you and that one day we will meet in heaven. Thanks for writing this. It takes courage.

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  9. Hello Pennie, fellow Christian blogger here. I didn't understand why people were against Halloween until recently when my fiance mentioned that she was and why. You are right! Something so historically steeped in paganism is hideous in the sight of God. We may not be sacrificing babies to Baal, but we are going through the motions every year in October. Thanks for the insight!
    Simeon Brazzell
    www.brazzellstoaustralia.blogspot.com

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    1. Thank you, Simeon. Hideous is a very good word. I think maybe a lot of people don't quite understand how much God hates paganism. Anything that even bears a remnant of the fragrance of paganism is a stench in God's nostrils. After I got free from it and saw the destruction it left in its wake, I hated it too, and everything about it. And I consider that a blessing.

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  10. What a powerful testimony! I was raised in a Christian home that never celebrated Halloween, which I am so thankful for. I've never understood how Christians can participate in such a demonic day. Thank you for sharing this! I will be praying for you, that you can continue to use your story and your voice for the Glory of our Father. Blessings!

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    1. Thank you, Kendra! Blessings to you too!

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  11. It is testimonies like this that have encouraged my husband and I to walk away from any/all Halloween functions. Our church holds a night of worship on Halloween to bless the Lord with song :) It is AMAZING!!! Our house doesn't get decorated and for trick or treat night we rent movies and have a fun family night so the kids don't even notice what is going on outside. I'm tired of the "Fall" parties that Christians have that are basically Halloween by another name.

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    1. Thank you, Brownie. I would encourage you also, at least with your husband (if not your church as well), to have a moment of prayer for those who are suffering on that night. They are in dire need of our prayers. I believe such prayers are what led to the miracle of my conversion.

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  12. Your honesty is a blessing! Thank you for sharing. :) May the Lord continue to use your past life to be a testimony to others. To God be the glory!

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  13. AMEN!!!!! I was also saved from the occult. And it sickens me every year. For 13 years since my salvation I have prayed that if the Lord is ok with His bride celebrating satan's holy day that He would give me peace. He has not. But no one will listen. They give excuse after excuse why it is ok and if you disagree, then you are being legalistic. I could go on, but I see no point. Just thanks you for sharing this. I will be spending that night in prayer also as I have for the last 13 years. I'll meet you at the Throne! :)

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    1. Thank you so much for your comment, Cindy! Those of us who are ex-occultists do understand. You would think people would realize that if an ex-occultist sees something wrong with it, maybe it's because we know something about it that they don't. We can only pray the Father will draw them and give them ears to hear. I'm blessed to know you'll be joining us in prayer on that night.

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  14. Wow! This article was very powerful and has opened my eyes. A lot of our churches swap out the "Trick or Treat", for the "Trunk or Treat". But whats the difference really? Thank you for sharing!

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    1. Thank you, Shea, and I agree with you. Witchcraft by any other name still stinks.

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  15. Praise the Lord that He's willing to save sinners like us!

    Like you, I was, in a sense, dragged out from witchcraft and into His Presence; in His good pleasure He saved me (I spent only a few years in the occult, but that was still detestable to the Lord!).

    Thing of note: I don't celebrate Halloween; I do celebrate the Reformation (October 31, 1517 was the day that Martin Luther nailed his Ninety-Five Theses on the door of the Wittenberg church in Germany; that sparked the Protestant Reformation.) with folks from my church.

    May the God of peace be with you!

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  16. Great article! I am a Christian and my husband and I were both Christian when we married, so our three children have never participated in celebrating Halloween, and they never complain. I am sorry for all that you went through, but Praise the Lord, He saved you! I will pray with you as well. May God continue to bless you as you walk with Him.

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    1. I think the "holiday" is more for the adults anyway, whether they admit it or not. Children are actually quite content to spend some time in compassionate prayer for the lost on that night. It's the adults who worry what others will think. May God bless you and your family.

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  17. I'm not trying to be antagonistic, but aren't Christmas trees based on pagan rituals as well as easter eggs?

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    1. That is correct, and that is partly why I don't celebrate any of the holidays.

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  18. I agree with everything you said, I hate October. I am curious what you think about Christmas, since many of the traditions also have pagan roots.

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    1. Thank you, Monica. I don't do Christmas either for those very reasons.

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  19. WOW WOW WOW!! Thank you so much Pennie for sharing your testimony, it made me cry. I have no other words other than I thank God for meeting you where you were at. This post was truly amazing and the encouragement I needed for today! Be forever blessed. Peace.

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  20. What an amazing testimony! I have been anti-halloween for a long time. My husband didn't really have a problem with it. Last year he took our kids trick or treating, but I have been feeling more and more uneasy about it.. Over the years I usually have said no to trick or treating, but was convinced that it was 'innocent', but this last week I was feeling so convicted, and every time my kids would bring up halloween I didn't even want the word said in my house.. I found another blog post yesterday and read it to my husband and he totally agrees with me know! I will read him yours tonight too. Thank you!!!

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  21. Thank you for sharing! I pray that those who read this will have "ears that hear". Blessing!

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  22. What do you know of the Sisters of Avalon? My daughter is a part of this group...I am so in the dark as to how to pray for her....any thoughts?

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    1. I have participated in Avalonian rituals at national gatherings, and as a matter of fact, it was partly because of that group that my name was legally Avalon for ten years. Sisters of Avalon is a Celtic goddess tradition that places a lot of its focus on empowering women and celebrating womanhood. Pray that the Father draws her and that her bitterness about men is broken. Also pray that she will see the deception behind these teachings and will be granted a love of the truth. A lot of people don't realize it but any time a person is devoted to deception they are being enslaved by satan. Truth is the only thing that sets us free and the way to the truth is through the word of God. Pray she is willing to listen to the word of God.

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  23. Thank you so much for posting this...I will be sharing this on FB, with hopes that some will see the truth & the light about this horrible "holiday"! I have never been in the occult, thank the Lord, but I've seen what the enemy has done in so many lives, and my husband & myself refuse to celebrate anything that focuses on Satan & the kingdom of darkness. Thanks again for speaking truth!!

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  24. Continued blessings to you and yours!

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  25. Thank you so much for sharing your testimony. May God bless you richly as you seek to be faithful to him.

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  26. Pennie, I don't know much about the pagan history of Halloween, but I know enough to choose not to fraternize with the enemy, so I don't participate. There are not even jack'o'lanterns in my home. Next, I want to learn about Christmas and Easter. Do you have a link to that information I could use?

    Thanks so much for praying for and educating us. I'd rather have Jesus than anything!

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    1. I don't have anything handy; I'm sorry. But I do encourage you to research. I don't celebrate any of the holidays because they are pagan in origin and I don't want to give the devil a reason to crack even the slightest grin.

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  27. Sitting here with tears in my eyes, because I too, can relate with the heartbreak of seeing so many Christians participating and not caring. I have heard every excuse, people don't want to give up their "fun". Period, regardless of how it hurts Christ. They don't realize they are opening their selves up to the spirit world, even by allowing their children to carve/paint a pumpkin. It seems harmless, but anything that satan has his hand in, is far from harmless.
    The night spent in prayer, has really spoke to my heart and I do believe I will spend it praying also. Thank you for sharing your testimony and taking a stand!

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    1. Thank you, Dalina! I believe Jesus will be most blessed by those prayers.

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  28. It is amazing how far down into the darkness the Lord will reach to redeem us, to meet us where we are even when we are surrounded by fallen angels, our minds hungering for power and control over our own lives and destiny. Look forward to having coffee with you Pennie sometime throughout eternity :-) Thankfully we can talk about Jesus instead of comparing stories of witchcraft and darkness, because we are forgiven!

    Your brother in Christ Jesus, fellow recovering occultist,
    --K

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  30. Thank you for being brave enough to say this. I've been a Christian all my life, and have a centuries long Christian heritage on both sides of my family. My parents decided when I was a baby that our family would not celebrate Halloween. Not even in the guise of a church "harvest party". For all the reasons you outlined.

    Nothing about Halloween can be used to show Christ's love.

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  31. Thank you so much for this post. I was in the occult for most of my adult life, and just came to Christ this year. This is the first halloween we are having as a Christian and it has been difficult. Not because I miss it,but because every Christian around me is celebrating it. I am so confused and lost by that. God keeps reaffirming to me that I am doing the right thing though. I was just sitting here feeling sorry for myself when I saw this post as a matter of fact, lol because I now just hate halloween so much. So again, thank you and thank the Lord for pointing me here.

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    1. I am blessed by your comment, Beth. You are not alone.

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  32. Halloween-free, here, for 25 years. You go, girl! :)

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  33. Thank you so much for your testimony, Pennie. I am from a Christian home, and I am totally against Halloween. I live in Brazil, and it sad to see how widespread it has become here, too, as the Brazilians try so hard to copy American culture.

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  34. I grew up in a strict christian home and my siblings and I all liked dressing up. The town I live in has an annual altar show. Yes, people pay money to make altars for others to see. The evilness of it just sickens me. A girl in one of my classes decided to dress up as a devil worshiper for the holiday. These things just make me cringe and I am really seeing this time of the year differently than I have in the past. Your story reminded me of the truth behind the costumes. We are going to be talking about the day of the dead and the altar show in my art class and I will make sure I am covered in prayer before I go to class.

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  35. Hello Pennie! Praise the Lord that He saves sinners like us!

    I stumbled upon your blog while reading another blog I found on Facebook.

    Haven't participated in Halloween for years since I became convicted that it dishonours our Lord.

    More grace to you as you follow Christ. Helen

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  36. I have one question. Do you celebrate any holidays?

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  37. Well Pennie dear this is some powerful reading. Doesn't it just make you oh so full of joy when you get to meet Christians that are one heart one mind... and don't you sit and wonder why and how when they are not? Mine Dad would say they don't have the Holy Spirit. Mary

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  38. Dear Pennie,
    Beautiful and wonderful testimony! And amen! The reason why most Christians keep Halloween and Eoster and Christ Mass, is because they KNOW NOT what they are doing! They have been overcome by the Babylon (confusion). Only one who has been wrapped up in this junk would 'get it'. Keep walking with the LORD and HE will reveal more and more to you!
    Peace,
    Deirdre
    www.sharetestimonies.blogspot.com

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  39. Thank you for sharing your powerful testimony! And a good word! Bless you, Laura

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  40. Thank you for sharing your powerful testimony, Pennie!! I am so happy to hear that you have found freedom and peace in Christ! :)
    I won't celebrate Halloween, my family hasn't for a long time, and my church is strongly against it too. I am so sad when I hear Christians claim that it's not a big deal, just a time to dress up and be silly and get candy... I just wish everyone could understand how big of a deal it really is. Thank you so much for sharing this!
    God Bless!!

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  41. WOW!!! my husband and I have recently turned back to the church, and it always seems like there is some sort of spiritual warfare happening when you try to get closer to God. My son is turning one this monday, and i am looking for halloween themed ideas on pinterest and this just came out of nowhere!! God is speaking to me through you wow thank you so much.. I think a zoo theme is better.

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  42. WOW!! I am so astonished my husband and I recently turned back to the church. its starting to feel like there is this spiritual warfare happening because we have turned back to GOD I was looking on Pinterest for Halloween themed partys, because my son is turning one on monday, and i came apron this. I'm going to be honest usually i would just scroll right on but something was drawing me toward your blog. I now know that GOD was using you to speak to my heart.. this is so crazy! thank you.

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  43. May Yahweh bless you for sharing your testimony!! This is the most beautiful testimony I think I have ever read. Love in Messiah Yahushua!

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  44. Beautiful testimony! I am so happy for you!

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  45. Love Love Love! Amazing testimony ... My husband has always hated Halloween and I kinda just went about my merry way and did it for just my boys and in the name of FUN!! But Praise God he's opened my eyes to see His truth about this very evil day! And it's get crazier and crazier each year! Probably the most loved and most celebrated holiday of the year by far today! ������

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  46. Praise God!! What an awesome testimony. Thank you so much for sharing. I too was wrapped up in the occult, but God delivered me too. Nothing is worth losing what God has done for me.......All I want to do it please Him!!

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  47. Thanks for the eyewitness account, Pennie -- God Bless you

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  48. Your testimony is absolutely AWESOME!!! Keep telling it till the Lord returns. The Body of Christ needs so badly to hear this. I believe what you are saying here. I don't celebrate this so-called holiday that gives absolutely no glory to God, but so many of my churched friends do, and I have been feeling like the Lone Ranger for a long time. Thank you so much for sharing your testimony. It has truly blessed me.

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  49. Thank you for your well written article, Over 25 years ago, we stopped celebrating Halloween, I told my kids, "I just can't promote evil." The first year we went to a movie, ordered pizza and went to the local Pay & Save (drug store) where I told them they could each pick out any bag of candy they wanted, and eat it after our pizza while we watched the VHS movie we rented and they could stay up as late as they wanted. . [So fun, 2 movies in one night! and no bed time]
    When we were in line to buy our candy, the store manager walked up and asked if they had fun Trick or Treating. My oldest daughter matter of factly said, "We didn't got, Mom says she cannot promote evil anymore." The manager did a double take. Then my daughter told her our plans and that they get to eat the whole bag of candy when we get home.
    It was 8:58PM and the store closed at 9PM. The manager pointed to all the big stainless steel bowls, full of candy, at the ends of the checkstands. "You don't have to buy those bags of candy. We close in 2 minutes and I want to give you all the left over candy in those bowls! Good for your mom!"
    So each of my 3 children came home with a shopping bag full of candy!!!!
    As we walked out to the car, my oldest daughter said, "Wow, this not Trick or Treating is pretty cool!"
    Thank you God for blessing my children, the store manager {the smile on her face was huge!} and me. You are wonderful and I love you!
    I tell this story every year and people love it.

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  50. Sis, thank you for your powerful testimony of truth, knowing the Truth will st us free! I rejoice in knowing the power of God's amazing Love, drew you unto Himself.
    God bless you!

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  51. I find no redeeming value in celebrating Halloween and have told my children that. I also wanted to encourage them....and open up the discussion because almost ALL of their friends from Christian families celebrate this holiday...so I just looked at them and said: "I am sad that Christian parents today think so little of their children's maturity that they think if their kids "miss out" on Halloween it will make or break their wanting to serve Christ. You are American children that are observing American Christianity that does not know what it is like to be persecuted. If not celebrating Halloween is going to throw you, then I, as your mom, have done a poor job of teaching you true Christianity or character. Because, if you truly love God, you WILL be persecuted at some point and you had better know what it is like to do a whole lot more than "miss out" on running around dressed up and begging people for candy. Maybe his only makes sense in my brain....

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